so confused as to what to say. exactly what do you want to hear? i'm having trouble being clear, struggling to give myself away. i can't win, i can't win, i can't win for losing. myself away. this is not what you want to hear. you ripped this from me long ago. i'm left to choke on your words, while you tell me i've lost my soul. reflecting back and deflecting away. i can't win, i can't win, i can't win for losing. this is not what you want to hear (from me). if you mattered at all, i'd look back one last time. and you judge and you damn, still you stand so high. i can't win, i can't win, i can't win for losing