then they came on me
they dragged me from the bar
still wet from sweat and beer
i bruise so prettily by men blinded by their fear
these men
broke my back and made me lame

then she said to me
i'd give you everything to make it like before
to make you love me like you used to
make you love me more
she said to me
your life is large but your mind is lame

i can't believe my eyes
when i see the truth and all the things i've done
and every place i'm queer
i never stay i run
i know now why i live in shame

lame...

it's hard to sleep at night
i hardly ever sleep at night